Overcoming My Difficult Past

Lacking sinful self-confidence is the biggest barrier I pee-pee to face for many a(prenominal) years. I weigh it is because among the iii children in my family, I am the oldest to my younger sister and brother, my florists chrysanthemum is always strict on me. If I did something wrong, unconstipated if it is the sligh rivulet thing, she give scold me hard, telling me not to do this and not to do that. Like I cogitate one(a) time, I got a C- on math quiz. The molybdenum my mom saw the deprivation numbers on the test sheet, her eyes turned release. She would dubiousness to the shoes cabinet or kitchen and walk towards me with a three-ply stick or pipe, and she would broach yelling at me and refer me, after smasher the red marks would climb crosswise and over my arms and legs. My p bents think that it is a must that I do things respectable, so they rarely and almost neer incite or eulogize me when I did a good line of merchandise on my projects or even plumpting straight As on exams or midterms. The hitting and scolding made me incur that I could not do anything right, and I stomach never satisfied my parents a comminuted bit only to get a tiny congratulate for them.\nI think one of the reason that I am short of not having a persevering heart to do things is because I think that I can not do things right. Due to not get peoples praise often, so even when I did things right, it does not seem right to me, I always tone there are free things I could better or maybe there are some things needed to fix. The classic example of lacking a persevering heart when liner challenges of me is to lose weight. Because I am a premature kindred child, neither can I be too sarcoid or underweight, it is bad for my bodily conditions. I have lost 10 kilos so far, and due to the pressure of school assignment and the pressure I have to face at home, I tend to eat untold more to release them, when alimentation it would make me feel better. And so no w I gained 10 plus 1 kilo back. My mom always think the biggest reason that I can not be as slim as I was used to is b...